Miserable!!!

Things are not all well with the gigglebunny.....my wisdoms are cutting through, shifting all my teeth around and giving me MAJOR pain! i feel absolutely miserable so it is with great relief that I can safely say I finished all my university work for the semester today. Im glad because I am so very tired and my mouth hurts so much and my head hurts so much. Im frustrated too...I guess I kinda feel like I am there for everyone when they are sick, but yet when I am in pain, or sick, I have to just suck it up and keep going like nothing's happened...I cant crawl into bed and sleep it off, cos theres dinners to get, and a house to clean, and uni work to do, and husbands to take care of...Im just not allowed the same privaledges that others are and that makes me mad.

I know..im being a whiney selfish baby, but I guess thats the way I feel right now...after all there are many int he world with much worse problems than me!!!! As I said in my last blog, I really truly am grateful for all I have in this life...it just at times I feel...I dont know....overwhelmed I spose. I sometimes feel like the walls of my house are closing in on me, and that the problems I face are boulders over my back...its not true, and Im almost SURE its a spiritual attack on me. Sometimes the place I find myself is so dark, and so hopeless, and so despairing....I still visit that place from time to time, despite the fact that I have a wonderful life full of love and laughter. There are moments where I go to that place that for so many years was my hell on
earth, and I dont know why. Perhaps it is because its familiar. Perhaps its because for a long time it was all I knew. Maybe one day I will safely say I will never go back...but I cant say that 
yet. No...I cant say that yet.