Time to clean up!

Hey all,

I've been in a crankie mood the last few days (although yesterday wasnt too bad) and inevitably when I get like this I get dissatisfied with my life and so today after church im taking it
room by room! Last night I achieved quite a bit while talking to Kel (Thanks kel!)

And so its Sunday again....This week seems to have dragged! This MONTH is dragging, mainly because I want my bed, and because I want next month to come so I can visit Kelli and see the Lads! Whoo hooooooo I cant WAIT :D SO EXCITING! Its so nice to have something to look forward to isnt it! I cannot even imagine us having this new bed...it almost seems foreign ya know what I mean? Like, that could never happen....the mattress in my office is an illluuusssionnn LOL LOL I wish! I really want my office back cos I want to get started on some scrapbooking again...I havent scrapbooked in FOREVER and theres been quite a few events that NEED scrapbooking (ma's wedding, iceskating trip, etcetc LOL) I have been spending a bit of thinking time lately taking stock of my life.....whats good, whats not so good...and I do have to say, there are SO SO SO many good things in my life right now....I know, I whinge and complain and whine about some stuff...but I have to acknowledge the fact that I have a wonderful husband...sure he has his faults, we all do, but he's a really GOOD man. I am learning what real Christian love is, what real friendship is and isnt, and I know God's trying to get rid of certain stuff in my life and in my character that he needs to. Its always so painful to look inside yourself and see all the ickiness inside that you dont want to be reminded is there...I struggle so much with myself...thats probably who I struggle with most!!! I have a mother who really does love me....I have my sister, and I have my best friends...people who I trust and who I can tell anything to. I have brad's family, and they've always been so great. As time goes on, I am realising that what I have lost, my grandparents, my dad and step mum, my brother, tho those things can never be REPLACD as such, I AM finding that new people are coming into my life to fill that void, and so Im getting healthy relationships as a result. I have a nice house to rent, we have the ability to reach our goals, even if it takes ages to do so! We have employment (as much as we dont like it at times!) and I can study, and really, theres not a lot I can complain about!!!

Thats not to say my life is perfect...my husband drives me BATTY at times, and my family isnt always smooth sailing...but when I think of what COULD have happened to me. I COULD have ended up in an abusive relationship...I could have repeated history. I could have ended up never being a Christian, never knowing God and to me thats just unthinkable. I could have wound up dropped out of uni, without friends, without a home, but Praise God He lead me to the man I was meant to be with. Im rambling I know...but I feel like I havent really acknowledged what is GOOD in my life lately.

I still have probs, and guaranteed Ill still whine about them! People like brad, Brian and Amanda, Ben, Kelli, you'll all still hear about em! but I dont want to ever forget that I amblessed...that God has truly blessed me in my marriage and in my life. Its like that song...

Blessed be your name, in the land that is plentiful
Where the streams of abundance flow, blessed be your name
Blessed be your name, on the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering, Blessed be your name

Every blessing you pour out I'll turn back to Praise
When the darkness closes in Lord, still I will say

Blessed Be the name of the Lord
Blessed be your name!!!!

I pray God helps me to Praise Him, in the good times AND in the bad times!