Giving up....in a good way!

Ok, so lately it has come to my attention that there are a few strongholds in my life...things I need to get rid of so to speak. The most drastic so far has been my use of facebook, which up until this point I really enjoyed. But I guess I've kinda realised that the majority of people I have added on my facebook who DONT talk to me at all are those who are part of my past, and they're not even people who I really know at all. They're people I USED to know, and I thought that was important to me, but it's really not. They dont talk to me, and I dont really talk to them...they're just...there. And I guess they figure that reading my status message is enough to keep in touch with me and that no other effort is needed.

But the truth is I am CRAVING relationships...REAL honest true relationships. And I dont have many, which is a shame. I think I've wasted my time on these so called "friendships" that in the end mean nothing and are all one sided. There have been "friends" who have used me to get something for themselves ( I can think of one in particular but I'm not mentioning names...) or friends who SAY they're going to do stuff and dont follow through (again, one in particular) people who believe that friendship is just having someone on their friends list on Facebook or people who think that it's ok to act one way to your face and another to your back.

But its not ok. I'm so worth more than what I've been getting, not just in my career or in my health issues but in my personal relationships too. I deserve to have people pick up the phone and call me. I deserve to get REAL emails, not those fake group ones. I deserve to have people want to visit me, to want to do stuff with me, to hang out with me, and to TURN UP when they say they're going to. And I realised too that I've been making it WAY too easy for people to know virtually everything about my life and yet not have to give anything in return! I mean thats what facebook does...it lets people pry in on your life without having to invest in ANY way, without having to do any work or make any effort! Well I'm so done with that. I'm excited at the prospect of shaving those from my life who don't want to know me, and to let go of all those nasty awful people I still check on facebook from time to time just to stew over how they're thriving despite hurting me...its unhealthy!!!

The other thing I've given up lately is diet softdrink...which may not seem like a big thing to some, but it REALLY HURTS me! I love the stuff...anyone who knows me knows that there is never NOT a bottle in my fridge, and I love that its refreshing and bubbly and nice. But no more.....I am allowed one bottle for work to refresh me over lunch, and that's it. I'm only in my second full day and I've felt it quite a few times today when I've gone to the fridge and only seen sugar free cordial or water in there! It's a little owchie but its something I need to do, not just for my physical health but my spiritual health also..anything that is binding me is keeping me from God, and that's not good!

And the last thing I've given up is potatos....and again that may not seem like a big deal but it really is a huge deal for me!!!! I LOVE potatos...seriously, mashed, baked, boiled, bring it on! They're my favourite part of my meal, and its rare for me to NOT have them....so to go cold turkey is huge! I am still allowed a few meals with wholemeal pasta or rice in it, but other than that no more potatos and limited wholemeal bread too! I know drastic measures, but again these are things that are strongholds over my life, and its time to get rid of them. I want to be totally free to pursue God's will for me, whatever that is, nad i dont want to have anything gripping me in any way. Call it a permanent fast if you will! Besides all that I have to streamline my life now that I'm working and commuting and such!

So there u go....giving up and loving (hating) it! :P