Contentment reigns!

Having gone through what my husband and I have over the last 10 days or so, (events which I have blogged about extensively) I have come to the following conclusions.....

1. There is much to be said for silence....I never used to be someone who appreciated much silence, preferring instead noise from a tv or cd or something, but these days I am finding peace and fulfilment in the silence of my home.

2. it IS possible to be calm in the storm, though its DARNED difficult!

3. I really dont have as many friendships that are TRUE friendships as I thought, but its time to stop begging for them! Basically, my attitude has become “if u dont want to be friends with me, or if you think I am lacking in some way, either tell me in a calm manner so we can sort it out, or THERES the door - dont let it hit u in the butt on the way out!” I am worth more than that, I know I am a good friend to those who I choose to associate with, to everyone for that matter, and the negative things that people have said about me really have no bearing on who I am in Christ. I dont need to hear it, I dont want to hear it, if u ditch me its YOUR loss not mine....cos I know that if I love others I will have good friendships, and ull be the one missing out!

4. My self esteem is not wrapped up in what other people think, and in order for me to be peaceful within myself all I have to do is just what God wants me to do, and nothing more.

5. Contentment is not a destination, it is a state of being....and sometimes it takes REALLY bad circumstances for us to find contentment in spite of them. I can honestly say the last two years, being in Warwick, having the church I have, even the jobs and studies I have done, I have never been more content. Sometimes its a dangerous thing to be too comfortable, and I know that things will change really soon, but for now I am committed to keeping peace in my life. I am learning the joy of being fulfilled in the Lord, of having quiet time to just potter around the house. I am sounding old I spose, but I guess in the last six months I have grown up a lot. I really think God is growing me, sometimes thats really painful (like this last week for example!) but I have come through with a new found appreciation for what I have in my life.

6. It is possible to have a house that the Holy Spirit wants to live in.....and thats what I want! More than ever I am committed to being careful what I allow into my home and WHO I allow into my heart nad my life. I havent been careful about that, I’ve made very poor decisions thinking that it doesnt matter. But it really really does. Our home has become my sancturary, my haven, and I dont think it has anything to do with our THINGS but with the way we appreciate our time together.

Speaking of which, time to hang with hubbie and cook some dinner! God Bless you all!